... something bubbling ...
I wish I was a genius.
I have come to think of myself as someone who is right at the cusp of being a truly inspired individual but who has fundamentally missed the qualifications by a narrow margin. I miss the days when I happily fooled myself into thinking that what I said or did had profound impact. I never really believed it, but I played a game in which pretending that my work was important somehow made it so. I'm not complaining, I'm not sad, don't get me wrong - I'm just not quite where I feel like I should be. There is an inscription on my heart that tells my brain that I'm going to be greatly significant, I just don't see the evidence of it anywhere right now. In the end, perhaps we're all playing the same game. That's what leads to a mid-life crisis, isn't it? One day we wake up and realize that we're not the awesome people we hoped we would become and we're running out of time. Why am I going through a quarter-life crisis? It's amazing what impending graduation can do to a fellow.
I like to think I just can't always understand my significance - but that doesn't mean it isn't there - and that maybe my lack of comprehension is in my own best interest.
Smells of Dust and Gas Fumes
About Me
- TheSloan
- I'm a young professional paying the bills and basking in the glory of simple living. It's what I'm professional at that I can't put my finger on...
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If we were never depressed, we would not be alive—only material things don't suffer depression. If human beings were not capable of depression, we would have no capacity for happiness and exaltation. There are things in life that are designed to depress us; for example, things that are associated with death or uncertainty in life's journey. Whenever you examine yourself, always take into account your capacity for depression.
When the Spirit of God comes to us, He does not give us glorious visions, but He tells us to do the most ordinary things imaginable. Depression tend to turn us away from the everyday things of God's creation. But whenever God steps in, His inspiration is to do the most natural, simple things—things we would never have imagined God was in, but as we do them we find Him there. The inspiration that comes to us in this way is an initiative against depression. But we must take the first step and do it in the inspiration of God. If, however, we do something simply to overcome our depression, we will only deepen it. But when the Spirit of God leads us instinctively to do something, the moment we do it the depression is gone. As soon as we arise and obey, we enter a higher plane of life...
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